Um You still owe me a trade.....

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Isn't it wonderful how nature arranges for all the crack pots to find each other?

I am a bloody mess... im surprised im still alive or can type this... i have lost so much blood and im covered in it now. i have tortured myself with razors to feel less pain from jill breaking up with me. but its not enough... i cant cope with this pain. im gonig to kill myself now so i would like to make this my final goodbyes.

first my biggest mistake in my life. Im sorry cammy. I let jill use me , manipulate me. make me say things i never ment. all to "defend her". i never made the discord omen account she did. she even has my passwords from all my accounts. i really liked you cammy, i really did enjoy talknig to you. it felt right and honest. thank you for your friendship . it was breif but it ment a great deal to me. and i still think about you.. you were RIGHT ABOUT EVERYTHING when it came to jill.... i am sorry.

frantz enjoy lots of bacon and chicken xp

rhynn you wll always know how much your friendship ment to me. you have always been honest and true with me and never lied.

99% of my lifes gone now. jill was my whoie life. the only one i talked to everyday. what do i have now NOTHING JUST PAIN NO HAPPINESS NO FUTURENO HOPE JUST HORRIBLE PAIN AND DESPIRE LIKE BEFORE HER BUT WORSE BUT WORSE. I WISH I NEVER MET YOU JILL YOU JUST HURT ME MORE THAN ANYONE MORE THAN BEING ABUSED AS A KID MORE THAN MY HERION CRACK ADDICTED DAD , MORE THAN THE BULLYS OR LONLINESS YOU HURT ME MORE. but i still love you eternally and beyond , i can never hate you i just love you so much.

what ever jill says , what ever lies she says about me. she has admited to me many times she a compulsive lier and "believes" the lies. she broke up with me for 1 reason. she met someone else. she has that other guy now. she wouldnt wait for me. the last week she has been SO COLD , CRUEL , UNCARING and not affectionate. all her replys having a horrible lag. shes was talknig to that other guy. i was always just a stop gap for her. untill someone better came along. she never really loved me...

she asked me to cut her name into my shoulder i did.... she asked me to make a blood contract for her i did.... she asked me to cut from cammy , to never have female friends.... i did... i did everything for her , coz i love her sooooo much. i would have done anything for her.

just one week ago she was on webcam saying "look this pillow is you and kissing it , wrappinh her legs around it , smiling at me. saying "david you make me soooooooooo happy" what changed so much in a week? her develping feelings for this other guy.

she broke up with me in a really cruel way. blocked me from everything.... never said im here if you ever want to talk. she just cut me out of her life completely.

I had no friends for 10 years before jill. i knew lonliness like you cant imagine. then me and jill found each other. she wasnt just my first love she was my first friend in 10 years. so talknig to her ment everything to me. it was my whole life. it made me so happy to talk to her. i had no future before her. she promised we;d get married , live in america. then move to england. travle to france and japan on our hooneymoon. travle round the world together. i believed all this... its why i live our futures.

this isnt just a break up its my whole life gone , her love , her friednship , our futures all gone. for her to block me like that... knowing shes the only one in my life i have ever been in love with . how much i need her. the only one i have ever talked to everyday. the only one who truely knows me.all for another guy , she wouldnt wait for me. i was "holding her back"

jill i thought you loved me.... you promised to forever stay. you used to be so abusive to me. turn into "sulky" if i didnt do what you said. tell me to fuck off a million times coz i wanted cammy as friend. threaten to cut yourself up if i ever visted rhynn. but i didnt care jill i accpeted you for who you are. your flawless to me. you still are. everything i have ever wanted in a women. you have stronge emotions , your passionate. into the occult , games , poetry , philiosphy. enkidous both our god. we shared a deep spirtual connection. and our plans for the future were the same too. we shared the same ideals and goals. your the perfect women for me . the only women jill. you said the LDR brought you losts of pain. SOON JILL SOON I WOULD HAVE BEEN THERE. we would have been so happy together.... and whats a year for a eternity? you couldnt wait jill... why wouldnt you wait for true love....... coz she found another guys she could have now. she has a whole other relationship set up before my corpse is even cold in the ground.

she would always say to me if you break up with me david i will kill myself. so many times at the begging of the relationship, she never ment it , she made the words mean nothing. but after loving her for a year i could say it and truely mean it , and i will prove exactly how much i mean it today. i have cut my body to shreads trying to love with the pain of this.

Jill Nelson "zarka killerfog" your promises your lies have killed me, you made me so happy just to bring me ultimate pain.

jill you dont know what loves means. you have no idea what love is. your human and shallow. i thought you saw relationships like me , but i was just someone you used , untill someone better came along.

i cant live without you jill i loveyou eternally and beyond goodbye forever now i kill myself to end the pain . i would die of blood loss soon anyway lol i lovre you eternally and beyond jill

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Love,
Rabbi~

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